Hey guys, sorry it's been another ten days, but I've been kind of busy.
I started both of my jobs now, and I thought I had found ANOTHER roommate, but this one bailed just like the last one.
I've actually been feeling really down about it...
I haven't been telling people how I've been feeling recently, mostly just because I don't want to sound like a whiner.
It's like this, I know my life isn't that bad. I have a roof over my head, a family that loves me, two jobs, and a myriad of opportunities coming my way. I just feel like every time something starts to seem like it's going well, it falls apart again, and it is always my own fault. I keep trying to do better, I just don't know how to do that on my own.
I guess the only reason I really feel this shitty is because I don't REALLY have anyone I can talk to about it. I mean sure my Aunt loves me and all, but I don't want to burden her even more than I already have by laying all my problems at her feet.
I just don't know.
Sorry for this being so sad and short guys. I'm just not feeling to great.
Thanks for being here, what few readers I have.
Hey! Sorry it's been 10 days since my last update. I've been a little bit busy.
On the side of my life that is Work, I have some AWESOME news.
I now have not one, but TWO jobs!
I did indeed do a happy dance when this happened. :)
My first job is at Rue21 which makes me just about the happiest girl in the world, because that job in simply perfect for me. I haven't actually gone in yet because they haven't received my employee number yet, but as soon as they do they will have me coming in.
My SECOND job is as a cashier at Target. I was actually really scared about whether or not I would even get the job because they drug test, and I wasn't sure I was going to pass. So for three days I worried and worried that they were never going to call, but then they did! My orientation starts on Sunday at 9 A.M.
Now on the Housing front I have even MORE good news.
I have found a roommate. Her name is Shelby and we actually used to be friends. We hadn't really talked in a while, but when she asked if she could be my roommate I was ecstatic.
We will be going to look at a place today, and hopefully she likes it enough that she actually wants to rent it with me as soon as possible.
I have some strange news for the Romantic portion of my life for all of you.
You might not know this, but right now I am kind of Anti-relationship. I just do NOT want to be with anyone because being WITH someone is too much hassle.
Well since I have taken on this mentality of being pro-singlelife, guys have started popping up EVERYWHERE who want to sleep with me, date me, or both!
All I can want right now are friends, and it appears that those are a lot harder to find than you might think.
I will say that I had a wonderful Valentine's Day yesterday though. I went to the movies with one of the few guy FRIENDS I have. He gave me a dozen roses, which I found sweet, if a little much, and we went to see Warm Bodies.
AWESOME movie by the way.
And that was about it. He came to my house and picked me up, we went to the movie, and he brought me home. The rest of my V-Day was spent at my computer.
Which brings me to the most exciting part of my little blog.
I know I try to give you guys new sites and such, but I want to tell you about a movie that I watched on my computer yesterday first.
The Perks of Being a Wallflower.
This is my new favorite movie of ALL TIME.
The story line is brilliant, the actors and actresses talented, and it is just a BRILLIANT work.
I don't want to give too much away, but I will say that even though this is rated PG-13, it is NOT a children's movie. It has dark undertones throughout the whole movie, and you HAVE to pay attention if you really want to understand why things are the way they are for Charlie, the main character that is played by Logan Lerman.
This movie also has my new favorite quote:
"I feel Infinite." -Charlie
That line really got to me for some reason when I was watching the movie, and has been stuck in my head since then. Another line that I just love for the pure hilarity of it is when Charlie is outside at a party, and Sam (The female lead played by Emma Watson) comes to talk to him, and he just stops for a moment and then says, "I just, saw this tree, and then it was a dragon, and then it was a tree again. It just lied to me."
So obviously I am going to tell you to go watch it, but it actually only recently came out on DVD, so I am going to give you guys the site I use to watch movies online.
1channel.ch
It gives you a lot of pop-ups, but it is the only website I have found that really let's you watch full length movies for free online.
Also, Myspace is trying to revamp itself with the New Myspace. I joined just because I could, but I must say that the layout is confusing and hard to use. The New Myspace is just the producers of the old Myspace trying to get back in the game, when sadly, the New Myspace still sucks.
There, I said it plainly for you guys.
Anyway, if you want more frequent updates on what's going on in the life of The Larkness Monster, follow me on twitter, @SumthinLikeGrrr.
I hope you guys had a wonderful Valentine's Day and are have an awesome rest of your week. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NxB5cCBryOk
^That right there is the link to one of my songs on YouTube.^
The quality still isn't awesome because I don't have any REAL recording equipment, but it's the best I could do given the circumstances.
Please check it out, and leave comments or whatever telling me if you like it or not.
Later interweb people.
I know I went one more day than a week, but I think I am still doing pretty well at keeping you updated on my life.
However stupid that may seem. XP
So over the past week I haven't really done much. I bought a jacket from Late Nite Readings online store.
Here's the link for that one. :)
http://www.districtlines.com/Late-Nite-Reading
Their band is pretty fucking awesome, and EXTREMELY talented.
Clayton Collins and Dalton Wixom can both sing like angels, and play guitar pretty well.
Brady Szuhaj plays guitar like a rock GOD, and can sing a little, but his voice doesn't quite compare to his fellow band mates.
(Sorry Brady, but it's true.)
He also has a hilarious YouTube channel call My Life In Color, which is how I originally found out about the band.
And here's that link as well:
http://www.youtube.com/user/bradyszuhaj
Then there is Drew Cottrell, the drummer.
I don't know much about him, at least not compared to the others, but he is CRAZY talented. Honestly they all are.
It almost makes me sick how much I idolize them. As you know I love to sing, but I'm no where close to being able to start a band. I can't really play guitar except for rhythm, and that's only a few chords! So the fact that these guys, all about 18 or 19 years old, are so amazing just blows me away.
That's the real reason for me buying the sweat shirt. I want to support them. I want them to get the recognition they deserve.
They are also awesome to their fans. They answer questions, give updates, and even chat with them!
I sat in for a couple of their chats on Stickam before it shut down, and the fact that they talk to their fans like they are their friends is something else.
I hope they always treat their fans this way.
The best way to keep up with what's going on in the band is to follow them on twitter.
@DaltonWixom @ClaytonJCollins @bradyszuhaj @Drew_Cottrell
Follow them, they actually post a lot of funny shit as well.
Enough fan girling and telling you how awesome this band is, go check them out. Seriously, it's worth it.
By the way that pictures is of the guys of LNR at the bottom. Just saying.
(P.S. I still haven't found a job but I'm looking. Turned in 5 applications today. Wish me luck.)
In keeping with my new years resolution I am trying to think of SOMETHING to write today.
First off, I have found an anime that is FANTASTIC.
Sadly, Netflix.com only has the first season of said anime, so now I am going to have to find another source to feed my addiction.
The anime is called High School of the Dead, and is about a zombie outbreak
Because zombie outbreak movies are AWESOME!
And these kids are surviving.
I won't lie, there are tits and ass involved in said anime, along with implied sex, which makes the main character look like a bit of a man whore.
But whatever.
On the PERSONAL FRONT, I am getting on with my job search tomorrow, hitting up several different restaurants about waitressing jobs.
I am feeling positively optimistic about the whole thing.
Other than that, not much is going on in my life. Just living day by day.
I am quitting smoking.
Cigarettes that is.
And of course out of respect for my Aunt I won't smoke any Jolly Green Giant while living under her roof.
But again. That's about all that's going on in my life.
Wish me luck on my job hunt tomorrow! Thanks. :)
So today I moved out of my friends' house and back in with my family.
I couldn't stand working at a strip club anymore, it was degrading and made me hate myself.
What ended up happening is this:
Last night, my now ex roomate and her boyfriend got into another argument, but for the first time the boyfriend turned his anger towards me. I stayed calm when he did, and he left fairly quickly after that. I then called my mother, who is WAY more like an older sister than my mom, and told her what was going on. I also told her how I hated where I was working, and that I wanted out of that life. She then told me to call my Aunt, who is the closest thing to a motherly figure I have. Ever since I started working at the club it has torn me up that I couldn't tell her anything that was going on in my life. It killed me to have to lie to her, so instead, I pretty much ignored her. Well last night I finally called her. I broke down, crying, telling her everything. I told her how sorry I am for lying to her, and how I hated my job. She cried a little as well, and told me how she didn't condone that I had lied to her or that I was working at a strip club, BUT that if I really truly wanted to get out of that she would help me. I cried some more, and thanked her, and we made plans for her to come get me today.
It wasn't all good though. In choosing to leave, I really hurt my friend/roomate, as well as a couple other people. Because it was so sudden, I didn't even say goodbye to a lot of people I was very close to.
But now I am home. It feels so wonderful to be around family that I know loves me, even if we differ in opinion on a lot of things. I am somewhere I know I am safe, and cared for.
And now I am tearing up.
So I will go now, and get some sleep. Tomorrow is going to be a BRIGHT new day. :)
Hey everyone!
I am moved in to my new home, and even though I don't have a bed right now it is comfortable.
If you want to check it out are pictures at the bottom of this post. :)
In my search through the interwebs to find some more interesting sites/bands/comics/etc. I have found a new site that if you don't already know about it you will LOVE.
The site is stereomood.com.
If you couldn't tell by the name alone I will explain.
Simply go to the site, sign in with Facebook or one of the other social sites that it supports, and then type in how you're feeling.
If there is not already a perfect match to your mood, it can show you similar moods that might even fit how you're feeling better than you knew how to say.
It is a progressive, proactive site that let's you put in your own input on how a song makes you feel so as to enhance other stations, much in the same way as Pandora, but instead of finding just similar artist, it find specific songs that more suit your mood than just taste in music.
Seriously though, you should check it out.
On the side of my life that is work, I can say that life at the club has been somewhat the same.
Well except for my reluctant ex-boyfriend who just doesn't seem to want to let go.
Just tonight he got a dance from me.
As if that wouldn't be awkward enough.
He then proceeds to try and act like this is completely normal.
It was really fucking weird.
My roomate also got a little upset last night about a lot of different things.
We ended up just coming home and smoking and watching a zombie movie.
The name of the movie was Diary of The Dead. Awesome flick, definitely worth checking out if you're a fan of that kind of thing.
Other than that, Life has just been that.
Life.
Let's see what tomorrow throws at me. :)
